Don't trust your feelings

So lately I've been trying to adjust my attitude, and while doing so I've realized that I have gotten out of the habit of taking my thoughts captive. As a person who grew up in a Christian home, I have been familiar with the verse in 2 Corinthians forever, but only gained understanding of what it truly means a few years ago.

A few years ago, I was full of anger, resentment and bitterness and in an attempt to get my life and relationship with God back on track I started meeting with a spiritual mentor. She is wonderful and has helped grow in my walk with God significantly. It was through one of the studies that we did that I learned what taking my thoughts captive meant. The world is full of lies. Full of things that try to distract us and try to deceive our minds. Taking our thoughts captive means catching those lies that are running around in your head and lining them up with what the Bible says. If they don't match, then obviously that is a lie. From there we are to renounce the lie that we have been believing and announce the truth of God's word.

I've been out of practice lately, which has probably allowed my attitude to shift into such negativity. I'm constantly saying things like "our baby is never going to get here" or "God has forgotten about us". These are obviously not true, but the problem is I FEEL like they are. Unfortunately for us, our feelings make us think that something is true because we feel all the hurt and pain from whatever is happening in our life. The dilemma is that our feelings aren't necessarily an accurate portrayal of the truth. Our feelings are incredibly real and matter, however we need to give our feelings some significant adjustments on occasion as well. Like my mentor always tells me, take your thoughts captive by recognizing the lie you believe, replace it with God's truth and your feelings will catch up later.

I've been putting my feelings and the lies that I have floating around in check. God hasn't forgotten about me, everything he does is in His perfect timing, and right now I need to wait. Our baby will come - again in God's timing. God isn't punishing us with infertility for something we did in the past, He loves us and wants us to have complete dependence and trust in him.

I've already been putting these skills back into practice and have been noticing the shift in my attitude. Justin is also a great person to have around as he constantly saying to me "Charissa, you are believing a lie", he is good at giving me a reality check when I need it. So I am now waiting, with a better attitude, believing God's truth and just waiting for my feelings to catch up.

2 Corinthians 10:3-5
"For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ".